currently: @878 (12:04pm) on friday 11.21.08 | 86 hours since last post
"Stop saying my name during sex. It's creeping me out." -God
So you know I got a PET scan yesterday, and we're supposed to get the results tomorrow. I'll post again tomorrow after we've met with the doc.
However, I wanted to tell you about this phone call we got today while we were out; a voicemail from Doctor Winter. Normally I think, out of the blue like that, just hearing who it was from would freak me out - like why is the Doctor calling?! What could be wrong?! But the message said, "I just wanted to let you know I saw the results of the PET scan just now, and we'll talk more about it tomorrow, but it does look better, and I wanted to let you know. See you tomorrow."
Boy, it's hard not to be really optimistic about that, isn't it? I mean, I try to keep an even keel and I don't want to be stupidly optimistic about things. Hope for the best but plan for the worst, that sort of thing is how I've tried to maintain my sanity, though hoping for the best is a scary thing to do in itself. I hoped for the best on February 29th, and instead got almost the worst possible news. So it's hard for me to hope much. But God, what do I do with that message? Why would he call in advance like that, 18 hours before our scheduled appointment, just to say it "looks better", unless it looks a LOT better? See what I mean? Or perhaps he just knows we're a bit freaked out about the results of this scan because it's going to determine our treatment options for the next couple months, and therefore determine a lot of what our summer is going to be, so he's just easing our fears. Either way, I thank all the stars for Doctor Winter, who I think is the best possible person to be my doctor through this ordeal.
So. I'm hoping for the best again. I don't really know what the best is, but I'm hoping for it. I'm also hoping tomorrow isn't February 29th.
Love you guys, as always. Oh, and I've memorized all the lyrics to the Boom De Ah Da song:
I love the mountains
I love the clear blue skies
I love big bridges
I love when Great Whites fly
I love the whole world
and all its sights and sounds
Boom de ah da, boom de ah da
Boom de ah da, boom de ah da
I love the oceans
I love real dirty things
I love to go fast
I love Egyptian kings
I love the whole world
and all its craziness
Boom de ah da, boom de ah da
Boom de ah da, boom de ah da
I love tornadoes
I love arachnids
I love hot magma
I love the giant squids
I love the whole world
It's such a brilliant place
Boom de ah da, boom de ah da
Boom de ah da, boom de ah da
One last thing. Wonder of wonders, Sierra has volunteered to take care of the dishes and feeding the pets. This girl is the best 16 year old girl on Earth. Apologies to any other 16 year old girls I may have passed over in my judgment. My straight-A's, has-a-great-job, great-taste-in-boyfriends, chore-doing, loving caring mature beyond her years Sierra is the best one.
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