currently: @810 (11:27am) on saturday 7.31.10 | 107 hours since last post
Immortality is my short-term goal.
Well, I'm done with my first quarter of college. I got pretty good grades too. I got a B in math (miraculous for me), an A in French, and an A- in International Relations, which is probably the hardest class I've ever taken and I was positive I'd get a B or a C. So yay! Current GPA is 3.56. Next quarter I'll be taking chemistry, precalculus, and greek mythology. Should be an interesting quarter. I want to major in Philosophy - I've heard from a lot of people, and my advisor confirmed it, that that's a really good thing to major in if you want to go to med school. I really want to go to med school at NYU. I'm already stressed out about it though! But I'm decided. Sometimes I wish I was interested in something else as a career so it would be easier to get there, and I try! I try to be interested in law because my mom says I'd be good at it, the schooling is shorter, and I feel like it wouldn't be that hard for me, but I'm just not. The only career I'm genuinely interested in is obstetrics. Oh well!
It's nice to be back home. I missed everyone and I actually missed Port Orchard. Also, I very much enjoy having no homework/getting to sit around and do nothing for three and a half weeks. I wish it would snow though. Also, my asthma is flaring up really badly from all the cat hair. It's obnoxious. Every night I get dizzy and wheezy and it's very uncomfortable. Luckily I got my inhaler prescription refilled and that helped last night.
I miss my dad. Christmas Eve and Christmas will be wrong without him. I feel strange not getting him something. It makes me sad thinking that his stocking will be empty. I would just go ahead and buy him something anyway, but I don't have much money left after Christmas shopping and it would just sit around here and take up space. Who knows. All I know is that I miss him terribly and wish he'd come home. I dream about him a lot. Some of them are a bit silly, others are weird and I wake up with strange unsettled feelings, but one of them I'm convinced was really him. I was walking through an abandoned city and I heard a noise in one of the buildings. I went in, and my dad was in there playing his XBox 360 and wearing his really bright multicolored button-up shirt and having the time of his life. I ran over to him and I was crying and hugging him and he hugged me back. I knew that he was dead and had been gone, but I'm not so sure what he thought. It was weird - it was like he knew we had been separated for a long time and knew he had been dead, but he also didn't know. He was happy, and comforting me, and kind of saying there was nothing to be sad about. And we hugged and I told him how much I had missed him and he said he knew. But I'm convinced he visited me. I felt his presence in the dream. Not just the way he looked. I felt HIM, all of the things that make who he is were there in the dream with me, and when I woke up I felt him everywhere. So that's a comfort I suppose.
Anyway, today is Maddie's 11th birthday, so everyone wish her a happy birthday!
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This year for Christmas, I would like you to bring my dad back to life. I know he'll be studied at first and that will be unpleasant, but eventually he could come home and be normal again. It'll be a Christmas miracle! Anyway, my mom and Maddie and I have been very good this year and have dealt with this for long enough, so I think we're owed an extravagant gift this year. Bring him back, and none of us will ever ask for Christmas presents again. I understand you may not have the authority to do this sort of thing, but, since you use such extraordinary magic all the time I assume God helps you out every year. I'm sure if you explained to him these special circumstances, he could make the necessary arrrangements. We would very much appreciate it. Thank you!
Love,
Sierra Phares
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